Finding the Path

The Path of Life...you will show me. You will fill me with joy, there. On the path. There is joy on the path. The path is life. You are life. You are joy. You are the path. Needless to say, I am enthralled with the path today. Clearly Jesus is the path. And if I seek first His kingdom and His righteousness...all these things will be added...

There is a cost. Jesus says that the road is narrow and there are only a few that find it. Why? Because there is a cost. And sometimes I just don't feel like giving up my own wants, 'needs', desires, ways, etc. to see if His path is worth it. And frankly, as I've shared before, some things are hindering me from believing Him. Some things are causing down right unbelief.

What am I to do? I am conflicted in so many ways. I feel like my 19 month old grand-daughter, "I want, I want, I want"! And when it comes right down to it, what I want, what I really want, is Him. The way, the truth, the life. I mean it's pretty simple. He made us to need a deep spiritual connection with him. Nothing is more beautiful to me than to see my grand-babies snuggle with pure joy into their mommy's embrace and to watch the utter delight on both mommy and babies faces! That picture says it all. We were created to delight in the Lord's embrace, to melt into His arms of love and compassion. To surrender everything into His capable hands.

So what's the deal? What's keeping me  tethered to the cares of the world? Maybe I am afraid He will let me down. Maybe it's my self-seeking agenda, maybe it's my pride, maybe it's my unbelief, maybe it's my fear of the unknown, maybe I don't want to give anything up, maybe...the list goes on. Frankly, I don't know. I really don't. But He is beginning to show me, as I take baby steps. That's right. Baby steps. Get up, get coffee, walk to study, get in chair, sit, wait, talk to Him, read a little, listen...

And do it again, the next day. What I adore about the Lord, is that I don't have to have the answers. He has them all. I just get to come and sit and wait on Him. Today, He is showing me that yes, there is a cost. Yes, I will have to give up some time, some money, my agenda, my rights or whatever...but the risk is...Him. Joy in His presence. I want to take that risk.

Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting. Psalm 139:23,24

Give, and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you. Luke 6:38